Influenced

So let's think for a start. Is what we are doing actually right? Is what we persist in right?

Is it really about love? Oh yes I know, you think that nothing else than love it can be. But often we fall into something that is actually completely different. For us it is love. For the other one, however, it is not. Often we put into a relationship much more than the other one deserves. Often the other one only manipulates us. The world is full of manipulators and it is only up to us whether we fall for their game.

Nobody feels good when he is alone. And from loneliness we often make decisions that we don't think that much about.
Sometimes it is even too early to find a half for ourselves.
If this decision is insufficiently considered, things can happen that we will regret later.

It starts innocently. With an ordinary message. With an ordinary smile. You start to get to know each other and you start to find out that you suit each other. Therefore you get together. You experience it with every piece of your body and mind. The person on the other side has power over you. Even though we often don't even know about it. With that person we feel so good. The idea of being without her is for us the worst thing. Then we get into a circle. Without possibility of escape. With huge weight of fear from loss. If the person on the other side experiences same feelings as we do, it is okay. If she feels above it, something starts to be not okay.

Doing everything for happiness of the other one is okay only if the other one is willing to do the same for you. And only about that love is. About both trying equally. If only one is trying and the other one only uses it, it is time to leave. And as fast as possible.

Then it is only about you. Whether you will continue to do everything for the other one without any response, or you will leave. If you leave still in the beginnings, it is easier. The worst about it, however, is that every day our feelings are stronger. Our love and devotion is still stronger and fear from loss scares us so much, that whatever the other one would want from us, we would be willing to do everything. Often the things that they want from us are against our grain. We ourselves know well that those things are bad. But we from a deceptive belief do them further. We do them through tears because fear has already long ago conquered us.
But don't despair. Always there is time to say enough. I know too well how very difficult it is. But it is necessary. If you have to do something against your will, leave. And to that I have nothing more to add. Only leave. It will hurt, but pain will pass. Believe me.

The absolute worst sentence in my whole life was. Do it if you really love me. And I stupid did it because I believed that if I wouldn't do it, it would end. And just the idea of being without that person was killing me. It was killing me more than those bad things that I because of it did. Everything that I then did I did from love. But what from it, that it was from love when it was against my will. Not for a second I then thought about consequences. I only did it so that person would be satisfied. Maybe I even wanted to end it. But fear and pain prevented me in it. Therefore I endured it further. I was too young to realize that it is too bad. But finally came the day when I said enough. Then it all only started. You have feeling that if behind all that you close doors, it will end. But you are on mistake. Then it only begins. Then you must be the strongest. Because just then begins influencing and manipulation. You must clearly say to yourself I want to end with it. And let person do whatever, I will not succumb to him. Everything once ends. Even the worst mockery and humiliation. But manipulation does not end until you end it yourself.
So think. Is what you experience love, for which you are willing to fight both equally?

Today I am already quite differently. In love I see meaning of life, but only then when I am sure that the other one feels it equally. When the other one tries equally as I do. I see love only when we respect each other. Until I got to all that, I had to make really very many mistakes, that until end of life I will in depth of soul regret. But not so much. If not for those mistakes I would not be where I am now and I would not be with person with whom I am now. I am for it even grateful. If not for those situations until today I would maybe believe those wrong persons. Today I am much more careful in who I should trust and how I should love. Whatever you experience, always it is necessary to think whether what we do is okay. If on it we find even small problem we should stop it. At first at least try for change. If however change is not possible we must end it. Immediately.

I bring you here a piece from my "dark" past. Not even a bit I am proud of it, but it is necessary so that you give attention to such people. Everything we have in our own hands. And so it also always must stay. We must not get to point where about what we will do will decide someone else. Then it is already too late.

Stay reasonable.

Lightning